I fear being controlled.
I fear losing control.
I fear finding out that people whom I’m supposed to know inside out, have terrifying secrets.
I fear not being able to live up to expectations, of myself and of others.
I fear losing myself.
I fear having to compromise my principles.
I fear not being able to do enough.
o_O I have a lot of fears. Might as well just fear life itself. Sigh.
I’m reluctant to spend money on items which I consider a luxury or a non-necessity, more so these days than before.
Especially when I come across people begging on the streets after window-shopping. It makes me feel ultra-guilty that I can even consider spending RM2K on jewelry (for example) when there are people who don’t even have money for their next meal.
I shall let my family and friends tell you about me. These comments may be rather old but I think the gist of them still hold 
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When AiLing runs across someone she dislikes, she doesn’t start a big campaign to destroy/challenge their ideals/motives. She simply avoids them! Hence, if she calls u her FRIEND, u can be rest assured of her unswerving loyalty, care & compassion
AiLing’s unique, authentic & strong-willed. Her love for animals is beyond comprehension (at least for me!). She gets really crappy when stressed & it’s not wise to provoke her as u may end up badly bruised (either physically or emotionally)!!
ok ok ok! To cut the crap… u can consider urself somebody fantastic if she calls u her friend. Conclusion : I AM HER FRIEND 
~Audrey (ex-boss, good friend, now boss again)~
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This beauty queen has more love for animals rather than human beings as whenevr I tried to flirt with her, I just got kicks from her…
Dnt think of doing any silly thing with her as she is too good in martial arts…. I had a personal experience of that 
Tip for first date with Ai Ling : Go in costume of cAT or PANDA!
Anyway jokes apart, she is a nice sincere (altho I doubt sometimes!) gal to work with and and at the same time a nice friend to take care of u….
~Rohit (ex-vendor, good friend, new father)~
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I’m not good in writing testimonials but I’m doing it because U are a Great Gal & I promise U one. Hehe…
When we 1st met, U were really Quiet & Reserve. But after a while, U really opened up & our friendship deepens. I’m really Glad to find a True friend in U.
U are not pretentious nor ostentatious. Always helpful & caring. Always listen to my whining & bickering..
Thank U for being such a Sweet Gal. May U be blessed with eternal Happiness.
~Erica, 23/02/2006 (ex-colleague, now good friend)~
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Always thought she was overworking herself with some many after-office activities, ie. salsa and sutra dance. 2 weeks ago, I finally see what it all amounts to in the end…
AMAZING! She dances so well, I’d want to sign up as her manager to manage her future gigs. Not that she’d let me, but one can always hope. Multi-talented to say the least, but definitely a one-of-a-kind. I’d give 2 thumbs up for this person, cause for me, she’s a Malaysian Idol in her own right.
~Merv, 07/12/2005 (ex-uni mate, always good friend)~
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Titus Andronicus?!! Run, people, run for the hills!!
Hmmm… your affinity for feral animals, your constant need for hibernation, Titus Andronicus…. oh, God. Can you say Attack of the 5ft She-Cannibal?
She prefers to go under any number of aliases: Dame Sleeps-alot (as opposed to Dame Sleeps-around-alot, that’s someone else. I think.), Rockchick, Catwoman, Salsa Saucy, etc.
The restraining order issued by Josh Groban against her is completely groundless; it was purely coincidence that she was outside his bathroom window that day with a pair of binoculars and a bag of vegetable treats. And baby oil.
Only dresses tartily on special occasions.
~Andy, 02/09/2005 (friend of a friend, very interesting individual)~
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We used to be ex-colleagues till destiny had a different path for the both of us. No matter, we’ll meet again. Since we are currently still so close to each other. Hee hee!!!!!
Sure do miss those good old days though. At least I got to touch my favourite beautiful things. Yum!!!
~Jean, 25/08/2005 (ex-colleague, now good friend)~
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the youngest volunteer in ur group + owez smile + listen to my sad SEATRU story + snorkeling + kancil + pasar malam = THAT WHY I OWEZ REMEMBER U.
~Sly, 23/06/2005 (research assistant in charge of the volunteers at SEATRU)~
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She could stare down any cat, and her CFM (Come Fight Me) poses are known to ward off evil spirits. She’s a perfectionist who doesn’t settle for less, her fetishes for shoes can reach the tops of KLCC, and she can sure spell RYZE with her ***
But don’t let all these fool you! Beneath the killer looks, she a YOUNG, kind, sweet, caring, spunky, innocent, thoughtful lovely YOUNG lass with a heart of gold.
~CL, 31/05/2005 (friend, now my better half)~
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ailing. What can I say about her? I knew her since I was very young. We used to go to the same kindergarden.That’s like 20 years ago. We had lots of childhood memories together. I can say, she is a great companion…a great friend.Altho we went separate ways…….she was in USA….I was in Australia……this girl has a special place in my heart..now and always. HEY! Its about time to meet-up..and have some fun…Hugz…
~Lily, 05/11/2004 (good friend from way back when we were tiny tots)~
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my sis: she’s anal, rigid, easily annoyed (it takes soooo little to irritate her!), damned dicsiplined (more than me anyway) and a champion for the environment and animal causes. try and cross her on her ideals and you’re fired meat, man! she’s also quite sweet, very helpful, extremely kind to animals and to some people, and if you’re a friend in need, would probably go all out to help you. But does not like to incovenience her own friends.
oh, and an ok kid sis lah. hahahahah!! used to poke me in the ribs to wake me up, irritated the hell out of me. now i poke her in the ribs to annoy her. occasionally.
~Sis, 08/07/2004 (self-explanatory)~