I think I’m mean
Sometimes I feel that I can be quite mean 
For example, when I don’t feel like spending time with some people.
See, I can be quite ok pals with some people (but not really close) so they may feel that we’re good buddies. But sometimes, there comes a point where, due to their personalities/characteristics, I just don’t feel like hanging out with them more than I should (e.g. something about them annoys me). And because of this, it alters the way I speak with them or behave around them. I get more curt and/or impatient. Or I just don’t initiate conversation with them.
But I can’t tell them that straight to their faces because the problem is with me, not with them so it would not be a very nice thing to do. So I would resort to making excuses to minimize the time spent with them.
But thankfully, it doesn’t happen often. But I am currently facing 2 such situations. And I am feeling really guilty for all the excuses that I’m making
I guess there’s a reason why almost every zodiac description or personality test that I have done (for fun, mostly) always described me as having few friends but they will be close ones o_O I haven’t had such feelings towards my longtime friends. Only towards people whom I have met recently in my life.
Sigh. I feel so mean.
Always a pessimistic idealist… the perfectionist… animal lover… dance enthusiast… and snob to people who don’t know me. Coz I’ve got the “proud peacock look”, according to a friend. Ah well… always takes one to know one, no? 
