Am still trying to locate the shop that I’d passed by, selling air purifiers. Still on my quest to get a really good one, to try to help with the Hubs sinuses.

Another reason to detest pale floor tiles — everything that gets on it is so visible e.g. dust, cat fur, tiny bits of paper from Misty’s scratching board.

Ah well, adjustments are inevitable. Have resorted to vacuuming daily in the mornings. But I’d have to do it at night when I start work else the neighbors might send me a love letter in my mailbox (happened to someone else for another noise problem). Hah, with the construction going on and the 2 competing mosques nearby, we have no lack of noise pollution anyway.

On to my quest for the perfect air purifier…

I wonder what brings on a migraine coz a splitting headache is what I’ve got right now.

And I am appalled at some people’s complete lack of communication skills. Gawd!

Ow.

I think I finally found out how I got the blister on my finger.

Ironing!

Bah.

The only reason why I’m not looking forward to going back to work is that I won’t be home to watch Nessa in case the reduction of her meds cause her seizures to recur. According to the vet, it will take about 2 weeks for the meds to stabilize in her system so it might not take effect immediately. This means that the most likely time it might recur is when I’m back at work. Sigh. Am so praying for the best because it would be so difficult to see her go thru the horrifying episode again.

Doesn’t help that now I don’t have my parents around for moral (and sometimes, physical) support.

Sigh.

Got.to.be.strong.to.handle.this.on.my.own.

Now I know how it might feel like if I were to have a kid and had to leave him/her to go back to work. But that situation would be different in that there would be people (read : family) who would be clamoring to volunteer to watch the kid.

When I’m in a plane, I am very sensitive to the engine sounds. I can pick up every tiny bit of change in the engine by its sound and, I am embarrassed to admit, I sometimes get a bit worried because changes in the engine could mean different things — some of it normal engine activity or other unexpected things (of which I would rather not think about).

In a similar way, I can also detect changes in the way people behave/react around me. I can pinpoint changes in voice tones and even the subtlest change in behavior towards me. But that’s about the extent of my ‘skill’. I can tell when there is something different, but I don’t know what is the cause of it. If I am close to the person in question, I would ask directly what is wrong. But if it’s just an acquaintance, I would ignore it and pretend I didn’t notice.

This is the part where it becomes frustrating. Normally, most people would appreciate it when you ask them what is wrong because they sometimes don’t know how to bring up the issue. Which is good, because I’m the type of person who prefers to resolve issues right away instead of letting them dwell and fester in one’s system, which isn’t healthy, in my opinion.

But then there are other people who will deny that there is anything wrong but I know something is wrong because it is so blatantly obvious (t0 me) from the way they act. They think they can hide it and deny it, but I can tell. And I think it is unfair to me, that if you have an issue with me and you don’t tell me about it, I can’t address the issue and resolve it. IF it is some wrongdoing on my part.

But then again, if someone wants to try to hide something from me, I guess they are safe.

I am not a mind reader. I can’t go into one’s mind and magically find out what is wrong. Thus, if anyone were to have an issue with me, I would appreciate it if they would just let me know.

Is this an unreasonable expectation?

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I don’t know if it’s due to my work experience or such, but when someone asks me a question and I don’t know the answer, I will  try to give them options in order to find the answer.

Example scenario :
Other person : Hey, do you know where I can get XYZ?
Me : Hmm… I’m not sure but you can try Mall A at Store B or C. I think they might have it there.

See, I won’t just say “I don’t know” and leave it like that. Of course, I won’t have the answers or options in every single situation but most of the time, I can give some options.

Maybe it’s from work. Since the beginning, I’ve been trained never to just claim ignorance without giving options/alternatives because it is a negative reflection on one’s attitude and initiative. So I would never go to my bosses with a problem, without first having a list of possible solutions. At least then they would see that I have thought about the problem and all they need to do is guide me in the correct direction to come to the most viable solution.

Similarly, I work the same way in my personal life i.e. refer to scenario above. And if I don’t know the answer/option but I think I may know someone who knows or I can do a bit of work to find out, I will offer to do so and get back to the person. Likewise, I also expect others to do the same. Of course, I don’t expect everyone to have the answers all the time but we all have different experiences and know different things, so I’m quite certain that the next person will know something I don’t but may want to know one day.

People who just respond with “I don’t know” show me a lack of initiative and effort.

Is this an unreasonable expectation?

Contrary to what family and friends might think, although I am currently unemployed (by choice), I have not been sitting at home and vegetating in front of the idiot box or sleeping my days and nights away.

I have been surprisingly occupied with various tasks and activities since I quit my job, besides planning and executing the Big Day.

Let’s see what I’ve been doing since the Hubs returned to work after his short leave for the Big Day. In no particular order :

• Vacuuming every other day because I keep the windows and door open so that air will circulate around the place but unfortunately, it also brings in dust from the construction around us.
• Doing laundry every few days. We have surprisingly a lot of laundry even though it’s just two of us *scratches head*
• Ironing, which I detest but still have to do. I especially detest ironing 100% pure cotton shirts because as soon as I am done ironing one section and move on to the next, the previous section gets crumpled again. Whoever invented non-wrinkle shirts is a genius.
• For the past week, been going back to my parents’ home daily so that I can give Nessa her supplements in the morning/day. Started her on her supplements program in order to slowly reduce her pheno dosage. Since the parents are giving her the pheno at night, I thought I should share the responsibility of giving her her supplements in the morning. Can’t wait till the mossie screens are in and I can move her here so that I can supervise her more closely. Hope the supplements work so that she can eventually get off the pheno.
• Preparing ingredients for dinner and attempting to cook a few dishes.
• Meeting the Hubs for lunch since food around his workplace is quite limited.
• Organizing the closets and drawers for his stuff and my stuff. We have waaaaaayyy a lot of clothes (and other junk) for two people.
• Getting misc household items and running misc errands.
• Helped out a couple of days at dad’s office.
• Went for an interview.
• Met a friend for lunch.
• Met a friend for a movie.
• Edited pics from the Big Day and uploading into FB.
• Started sending out my personalized e-Thank You cards.
• Watched 4 episodes of Grey’s Anatomy.
• …and more which I can’t recall.

Tomorrow’s agenda :

• Mop floor + clean bathrooms/toilets
• Do laundry
• Go to the vet’s to get Patchy’s special food and refill Nessa’s supply of pheno
• Meet friends for movie
• Meet Hubs + friends for dinner

Phew!

After my hen’s night party, Jo was driving me and Gkay home. There was a police roadblock along Jalan Tun Sambanthan (I think that’s the road name), before the YMCA, heading to Brickfields.

For some reason, our car got stopped and Cop #1 comes up to Jo and asks for our identity cards. We gave it to him. We ask Cop #1 why are we stopped and what is the purpose of the check but Cop #1 ignores us. Cop #1 looks at our MyKads and gives mine and Gkay’s back to us but keeps Jo’s and goes to hand Jo’s MyKad to Cop#2. Cop #2 starts taking down Jo’s details from her MyKad. At that point, I ask Jo and Gkay “Wait a minute, why is he taking down your details? I’m gonna ask them when they return your card.”

So when Cop #2 came back to return Jo’s card, we started asking him “Encik nak check apa? Kenapa kereta lain tak dihentikan?” (few cars were allowed to pass without being stopped). Cop #2 says “Jangan risau, kita lakukan check secara rambang saja.” Jo asks “Tapi check apa?” And the moron repeats the same thing! And then he asks for mine and Gkay’s MyKads again! We were grumbling as we handed it over “Tadi polis tu dah check dah, kenapa kena check lagi” and Jo sarcastically remarks “Oh, nak check tengok kita warganegara ke tak, ya? And the moron of a cop still can’t answer what was the EXACT reason for the roadblock except that it was a random check and they are doing it for the sake of the citizens. Oh.my.effing.gawd!

You know, I wouldn’t have minded being stopped if the cops are able to articulate clearly their reason for stopping us and taking down our details. Saying it’s a random check is NOT good enough. Random check for what?

Can someone tell me if I have the right to refuse to hand over my identity card if they can’t tell me exactly what they are checking for? Heck, the information on my identity card is confidential! I don’t care if you are a cop! With all the corruption going on, what’s to stop them from using my details to commit fraud or something?

This country is seriously going down the drain. Sheeesh.