Dear God, please don’t let Nessa’s seizures recur
The only reason why I’m not looking forward to going back to work is that I won’t be home to watch Nessa in case the reduction of her meds cause her seizures to recur. According to the vet, it will take about 2 weeks for the meds to stabilize in her system so it might not take effect immediately. This means that the most likely time it might recur is when I’m back at work. Sigh. Am so praying for the best because it would be so difficult to see her go thru the horrifying episode again.
Doesn’t help that now I don’t have my parents around for moral (and sometimes, physical) support.
Sigh.
Got.to.be.strong.to.handle.this.on.my.own.
Now I know how it might feel like if I were to have a kid and had to leave him/her to go back to work. But that situation would be different in that there would be people (read : family) who would be clamoring to volunteer to watch the kid.
Always a pessimistic idealist… the perfectionist… animal lover… dance enthusiast… and snob to people who don’t know me. Coz I’ve got the “proud peacock look”, according to a friend. Ah well… always takes one to know one, no? 
